Here I am
You're welcome
I know
You've been waiting
I am what you want
I'm everything you've hoped for
That person you dream of
When you're curled up in down
I'm sitting on the wall
Of your 13 year-old self
Staring you down
With a smile
That's all too coy
What's more
I've been called brilliant
And dashing
And 'What a sharp young man!'
More than a few times
I've been told
I resemble Leto
Or Gosling
Or Karl Goddamn Marx
Oh believe me I know
That my shit doesn't stink
Because I'm such a fine trickster
You'll never notice
That I'm running off every few minutes
To cover my face
With this cream
That will forever hide
Every weakness
Every doubt
You can't break my stride
Because I appear invincible
And people believe it!
It's astounding
I know
They think, 'What an asshole'
'He thinks he's so fly'
But sadly
You're wrong
I know
What I am
I know
Exactly what I am
And I know
The role I play
And I choose it so finely
So delicately
I'm the most attentive
To the finest of details
And you love it
You eat it up
Like granny's steaming hot pie
You can't get enough
And you hate it
You compliment me
With reluctance
But why then
Don't you hate
Your dear old grandmother too?
Does she not feed you
In hopes of pleasing you?
To cause you happiness
And she gets joy from it
Believe me
She does
I know
She does it for everyone
Including herself
For you
For me
For life
And so do I
This isn't a farce
This is what I choose to be
For you
For me
For life
I don't want your compliments
I know
I want your hand
Your love
And nothing else
So crown me king
Or string me up
Raise me to the heavens
Flatten me on the pavement
But remember
It's your choice
You'll have to live with it
Choose with care
Or dare
To follow the wrong path
Either way
I'll be here
Waiting
~
